Tonnybon and Treats.

Friday, March 30, 2012

there's beauty in the breakdown.

me && my mom look the same when we cry; and post tears...

"but I guess love wasn't enough to convince you of monogamy..."
"It's okay not to be okay; tears don't mean you're loosing..."



My Grandmother died. (Pauses, holds in tears)
Philip called me while I was at work, and I fell...
completely to the ground. MY Grandmother.
My baby, the woman I just talked to.
the woman who always made me take her to:
TJ Maxx & Marshalls & Target
to go shopping for the same stuff
she already owned. o_O
The woman who made me sit down and watch
Maury & Jerry Springer with her
as she chanted "Jerry Jerry"
The woman who always had breakfast made for me
before I woke up, and never ever let me wash the dishes
The woman who even at 86 with her frail frame
made me sit on her lap.
Alahja, I love you. I already miss you.
But you're reunited with your husband; && i'll find peace in that
...soon enough You're legacy lives through us all.
& i intend to make you proud.
Rest In Nothing but Paradise; You deserve it.

She's the only one...


Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Sunday, March 25, 2012



"Your girlfriend isn't your wife. don't expect her to pretend to be until she is."
So... what about the girl you're just 'dating'?
don't expect her to act like your girlfriend, right?
righhhhht. :)


how I spend my saturday nights;
fucked up.
transition clothing 3x.
cookies && dos equis.
I hate chocolate shit,
i hate beer... O_o
on some genuine shit,
someone tell my ex-boyfriend i said hey, fuck you! (:


whilst Daray makes his bed.


I don’t force anything. I’d rather not waste my energy working for something when it won’t work for me.

"I’ve sat back & observed, and even taken part in a relationship that consumes so much energy just to be maintained. I’d rather be with someone that is content with just being.

Growth is always good. & you’ll always have to work on yourself. But who does it benefit when you’re the only one working? & furthermore.. what’s the basis if your partner isn’t ready for it? I’ve loved with my eyes wide shut my entire life, but all my senses are alert. I see the disregard. I hear the silence. I feel the disconnection. I smell the lies. & I can taste the difference. You can never get the energy you used trying to “fix” things back. So don’t start fixing. Start seeing. Listening. Learning. Growing. & things should mend themselves. Without that, you’re stagnant. & what you’ve tried to build will crumble in heartbreak."

4 years old. 4 languages.


Saturday, March 24, 2012

I believed that we would be, in love - eternally.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

but maybe we should get an anullment - before this goes too far...


i'm so bad at not playing these games.

No Pressure.


I got awesome new running shoes. I'm ready for next week.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012


Say what you need to say,

Sunday Highs.


today's tweets.

"I pity the fool, who falls in love w/ you..."
"It's just easier being single... Less stress, cuz the title has weight & niggas be trippin"
"Heavy is the head that wears the crown..."
...and I've been a Queen.
"I've been through the storm, had dirt on my name; i'm still holding on. Champion of the game - I'm still standing."
-I only care about mutha fuckas feelings to a certain extent. Fck it, society's made me this way. -It was fucked up, when I gave a fuck.. 'Cause I got fucked over. So I stopped giving those.
"...we just be concealing it"
Kite .

above all else:

guard your heart.

rest in paradise, love.

"There is a tremendous appearance that law enforcement acted to shield Jorge Zimmerman from arrest. One can not tell the level at which the desire to shield him from arrest originated, i.e. it might not have been the police, it might have been the DA/State's Attorney. Notice that Jorge's father keeps feeding excuses for his son to the public, but does not detail how Trayvon supposedly threatened Jorge. As Trayvon was walking and Jorge was in a car, what are we supposed to believe? That Trayvon made so deadly a threat against Jorge from outside the car, that Jorge had no self-defense option other than to get out of the car and shoot Trayvon dead? Jorge's father should stop running his mouth in public. And somebody above the level of the State's Attorney should be investigating both Trayvon's death and the behavior of the local police and the State's Attorney."

Monday, March 19, 2012

"&& if we ever whoop de whoop I want all that bleep de bleep."


Sunday, March 18, 2012

"It's not about 'ideas' it's about making those 'ideas' happen..."


hair was looking a lil rough, finally washed it... ice cream paint job. :)

Saturday, March 17, 2012

recovering undercover over-lover. recovering from a love, i can't get over.


Atx last saturday.