learning. growing. changing. rambling...

i'm still learning things about people... people that i thought i knew; it's sad how you never truly know a person... people can disguise themselves to be whatever they want to be. i'm so angry right now. i just made this unexpected phone call and we've been on the phone for 1 hr and 23 minutes and couting... IM FUMING. <--- if that's even a word. like ugh. people are so selfish... disresepectful w/ NO care for anyone else's feelings. preaching the gospel like you're re-born and saved. you're NOT. so stop lieing to yourself and others... and if you truly think that you are a genuinely good person then you DEF need a reality check. stop pointing fingers at people; cause if you haven't noticed three are pointing back at you. i try SO hard to change myself but some people and situations just make me want to fight and get all the anger out. && that's not me... im better than that, i refuse to let people bring out the bad in me, but some people are just BAD BAD people... period. like why?! instead of preaching about the person you THINK you are why don't you just work on yourself and let people see the goodness shining in you. oh wait some people can't because they are just HORRIBLE HORRIBLE HORRIBLE HORRIBLE ASS PEOPLE. <---- (yes i said ass). I moved OFF campus, i'm changing bible studies... and i'm erasing all this negativity && negative people out of my life. I can't deal with it anymore. In order for me to grow and change as a person i need to let go of the people who negatively "alter" my thoughts... let go let go let go... GRRRRRRRRR. i'm just rambling because i'm SO angry. I just finished crying out of anger, frustration and sadness to this persons situation... i just wish their was something i could do... but i can't. idk i just pray that God gives me strength to let go and let him take control.


BRIGHTER NOTE: behbby graduates in the morning!!! ya'ayyyyy. though i will be SLEEP. Congratulations dudeeeeeeee.♥

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