Friday, March 30, 2012
My Grandmother died. (Pauses, holds in tears)
Philip called me while I was at work, and I fell...
completely to the ground. MY Grandmother.
My baby, the woman I just talked to.
the woman who always made me take her to:
TJ Maxx & Marshalls & Target
to go shopping for the same stuff
she already owned. o_O
The woman who made me sit down and watch
Maury & Jerry Springer with her
as she chanted "Jerry Jerry"
The woman who always had breakfast made for me
before I woke up, and never ever let me wash the dishes
The woman who even at 86 with her frail frame
made me sit on her lap.
Alahja, I love you. I already miss you.
But you're reunited with your husband; && i'll find peace in that
...soon enough You're legacy lives through us all.
& i intend to make you proud.
Rest In Nothing but Paradise; You deserve it.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Sunday, March 25, 2012
don't expect her to act like your girlfriend, right?
transition clothing 3x.
cookies && dos equis.
I hate chocolate shit,
i hate beer... O_o
I don’t force anything. I’d rather not waste my energy working for something when it won’t work for me.
"I’ve sat back & observed, and even taken part in a relationship that consumes so much energy just to be maintained. I’d rather be with someone that is content with just being.
Growth is always good. & you’ll always have to work on yourself. But who does it benefit when you’re the only one working? & furthermore.. what’s the basis if your partner isn’t ready for it? I’ve loved with my eyes wide shut my entire life, but all my senses are alert. I see the disregard. I hear the silence. I feel the disconnection. I smell the lies. & I can taste the difference. You can never get the energy you used trying to “fix” things back. So don’t start fixing. Start seeing. Listening. Learning. Growing. & things should mend themselves. Without that, you’re stagnant. & what you’ve tried to build will crumble in heartbreak."
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
"It's just easier being single... Less stress, cuz the title has weight & niggas be trippin"
"Heavy is the head that wears the crown..."
-I only care about mutha fuckas feelings to a certain extent. Fck it, society's made me this way.
"...we just be concealing it"